What I am

I have to live with myself and so
I want to be fit for myself to know,
I want to be able as days go by,
To look at myself straight in the eye.
I don't want to stand with the setting sun
And hate myself for the things I've done.

I don't want to hide on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself as I come and go
Into thinking that nobody else will know
What kind of person I really am;
I don't want to dress myself in sham.

I want to go with my head erect,
I want to deserve all women's respect
And in this struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I am a bluster and empty show.

I cannot hide myself from me;
I can see what others can never see;
I know what others can never know,
I cannot fool myself, and so

Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free.

Intzaar By- Nidhi

Ye gazal bahut khaas hai kyoki isko likhne waali bahut hi khaas h..
aap bhi isse padenge to lagega ki jaise aap hi ke liye likhi ho ye lines par isse likhne waale sakhs ne isko apane kisi khaas ke liye likha h...
nahi shayad bahut khaas ke liye.... :)

Phir aajkoi gazal uske naam na ho jaaye,
aaj kahi likhte likhte shaam na ho jaaye,
kr rahi hu intzaar uske izah-e-mohbaat ka,
iss intzaar me jindgi tamaam na ho jaaye...

nahi leti uska naam sar-e-aam iss dar se,
kahi naam uska badnaam naa ho jaaye,
maangti hu dua jab bhi wo yaad aata h,
k judaai mere pyar ka anjaam na ho jaaye,

soch kr hi darti hu aksar tanhaai me,
uske dil me kisi or ka muqaam naa ho jaaye,
Zid hai usse paane ki, uski mohbbat se dil ko sajaane ki,
kahi zid ye had se badh naa jaaye,
kahi paaglo me shaamil mera bhi naam naa ho jaaye,

Ghzalo ka silsila fir chala hai ek baar,
kahi ye daur ab aam naa ho jaaye,
dua hai meri rab se ki jinda rooh naa ban jaau,
kahi uska ye dil kisi or ke naam naa ho jaaye,
Ab aarzoo he to un nigaaho me mohabbat dekhu,
par iss aarzoo ke lekr hi jindgi ki shaam naa ho jaaye....!!

By :- Nidhi...